YOU ARE THE GOD OF MIRACLES
for your unfailingly love,
lord thank you.
stupendously,
i somehow dont have that urge that im in the midst of O levels.
not that its trivial or whatsoever,
but i just dont feel the pressure that i should be feeling.
Os level should be distressing.
like what tab mentioned,
its seems like the holidays in which we have nothing to do that we're studying.
how true.
while many are losing their sanity and feeling angst over the preparations and its intensity,
here i am,
numbed towards everything,
the Os, the studying, the preparations.
why?
its not that im depressed or at the brink of insanity as if being lowered into hell
but i just dont feel anything.
AHH!
where has all the anxiety and fear gone to.
its good not to have all these feelings, but without these, there's no motivation, no driving force.
take for example, today, stared at the freaking page on how mao zedong formed the CCP but nothing went it.
i'm totally distraught by the fact that why must we study all these bullshit.
im sorry but i really do not find any significant values or purpose in studying history.
probably maths english and all the relevant subjects we should study our asses off. but why history or ss?
like the word history suggests, it is the past! why look back?
hello!? move on. there's such a thing called the future.
and its not that we are their children, in which learning about the legacy of our great dads and how they conquered the world and how they murdered one another in accomplishing that.
if only they knew that jesus is the KING of kings and lord of lords, there would be peace and we wouldnt need to study history, or rather theirstory.
lydia suggested that all theses subjects was probably educating us not to follow the mistakes that these "great" leaders made
but look, do i look like a person with the word politician engraved on my forehead
im sure im not gonna lead the country.
pass these textbooks to mr lee or whosoever that is in the government.
ok. i feel so much better.
i just know one thing.
it will all be over soon.
very very soon.
also, to those who has prayed and wishing me all the best
it may seem small, but it really means alot. it really make studying worthwhile and history better to read. Appreciate it.
really soothes my spirit to know that someone is there.
a real encouragement. thanks.
met up with tab and lydia a few hours back.
studied?
well i guess you can call what we did studying.
its funny how lydia is studying more than we are.
wait wait, just wait. STOP.
lydia here is not a O level kid who is in the midst of O levels.
She is, and still will be a secondary three student who has just completed her end of year examinations.
and she's studying MORE than us.
what ridicule.
moving on,
10 down,
3 to go.
i can do this.
yes i can.
unprecedented things will happen.
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