Big Ben Theory

life is freaking short.
you better start living your life the way u should,
and not destroying it.
you wouldnt know when you will be gone
treasure every moment,
every single friend, or family.
we always take for granted
cause we somehow know that we would'nt die soon
but we are so wrong.
any moment, we might be lying on the hospital bed
or even in a coffin.

life, life, life.
small word, big meaning.

i see things now from a different perspective after jovy's incident.
i used to think that i still have a long way more in life
how wrong am i.
probably god put me there at the scene for a purpose,
a purpose in which is a wake up call for me.
is time to leave my sin-soaked world
and go back to him.

the many thoughts that when i realised it was someone i know that was lying on the road unconscious really shook me. i was scared, confused, broken because god at that point was stirring something in me, something deep. of course i was like concerned for jovy and was praying hard for her and all, but at the same time, i started to pray for myself, my life. sounds ridiculous. but thats what i did.

i've seen many accidents, suicide incidents and all,
truth is i hardly bother.
but when is someone u know that is lying there,
things just take a change.
that was what i felt then. at first when i saw the 5 girls being hit by the van, i was like yeah yeah, another common shit again. the usual, reckless teenagers doing foolish stuff and only have to go through the hard way before waking up. but when i got to the other side and when Dj told me it was jovy, i was like..oh my gawwwd. aiken and rayvin were like asking me to talk to her as she lay there to like ease her pain? lol. but i could'nt. i was like too traumatised to do anything, more traumatised then the girl who was hit and was crying out for her shoe in desperation. as if her shoe was the paramedics. hillarious.
and i was in a way afraid than when i talk to jovy, she would die after that. no offence. not cursing for the fact that she is alright now. people said that my words are a killer. there u go, literally. PROVEN.

at that point, i also knew god was doing something in me then. that was partly why i didnt talk to jovy, not because i wanted jovy to be alone down there on the road as she suffer in pain and agony. so forgive me ladies and gentlemen. not my fault.. haha.

anyways,
jovy is recovering super duper fast.
first thing is that she got hit,
second is that she is complaining and scolding the doctors
the next she is up and laughing.
what more, but god.
went to visit her today,
she seriously dont look like a patient,
she looked as if she just strike lottery
she even ate macs.
hais. sick still eat..
see.. teenagers these days..
but it was a certified doctor that fed her the fries.
those who were there would know what i mean.

jovy, thermomethers are meant for taking temperatures, not for eating.

anyways,
fire conference was firely awesome.
phenomenal
reinhard bonke was like insane.
healings..
cancer, paralysed, diabeties etc
was all healed.

"yeah all the praise goes out to you"

sorry jovy,
couldnt bring reinhard bonke to you,
he was too busy talking to the dead and he probably couldnt make it out of the stadium due to kiasu singaporeans rushing and pushing and shoving their way out of the stadium.

well, we tried our best to get him..
cant blame us.

all in all,
get well soon.

and shan,
thanks for the generousity.
and u have proven the foolishness in you.
and just to let u know,
germany WILL NOT WIN.
i repeat WILL NOT.
this i can bet. haha.





and lord,
im sorry.





"how many times have i broken your heart, still you forgive"