Big Ben Theory

In times of circumstances,
In times of desperation,
In times of pain and agony
I will look to the heavens
for i know my help comes from there
for yet i will praise you
for you are my LORD GOD ALMIGHTY.

Jesus blood never fails me.



people come, and they go.
i guess i just have to accept this fact. its life. and sometimes the purpose of god.
some have to learn the hard way before realising that the world does not satisfy.
many of my friends have left,
saddening it may be,
but for the very fact that they have once know the lord and knew about his works and miracles,
i really pity them.

planet shakers yesterday.
thousands from all over the nation gathered at expo. despite the sea of unfamiliar faces, i managed to recognised a few, some even from the north.
was hit by gastric pain during worship.
was really really pain. but i told god, even in my pain, i will still worship. i endured til everything was over.
the pain got worst. left straight away with aik and lemuel to the nearest food court to get a cup of hot water. and thanks to satan, the food court was closed. decided to go home. wanted to cab back, but yet again, thanks to the devil, all cabs were hired. leaving with no choice, took the ever so long bus 38 with aik and lemuel to interchange. i almost died on the bus due to the overwhelming pain in my stomach. its like some acidic forces penetrating into my intestines. managed to get home after a long journey from the expo. threw myself on the bed, as at that moment, sleeping seems to be the only rememdy. woke up suddenly due to the urge of wanting to throw up. yes i did. and its surprising on how i can puke despite not eating since lunch. felt better and at that point i realised that sleeping was not the remedy. but worship. i decided to worship god. couldnt find the acoustic, so decided to worship him with the piano. worship at my small cosy room went on for about 15 mins. was so tired that i jumped on the bed and K.O. woke up this morning. took some medicine. better i may say, but i'm still having a lil pain here and there now but i believe that the god i believes in has his way in healing.

looking back, i think God is trying to teach me to give thanks for my circumstances, in times of pain, i will still worship. just like Job in the bible.


planetshakers tonight once again.
dont know if i can go,
but i believe god will restore me completely
and you're will see me there =)